Date Joined: February 6, 2011
Last Online: February 20, 2024
Birthday: September 24, 1991
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Hi there, I am a 31-y-o girl from Sweden. My name is Emily and I got a passion for creating. I am an almost happy girl. Just have some problems with my anxiety.
I have something that I call “nojjs”. A nojj is a fear, a little thing that are growing in my mind. I fear everything. Like when I am nojji, I am in the nojje-world, and my unconscious give me hints about what I had missed when I wasn´t nojji. Yeah, I Have my un-nojje days, I love those days, when everything is just so easy. I feel easy, I feel good, I can write letters, I can create. But when I am nojji I can´t do anything, better lay in my bed, and don´t see anything, because the more I see when I am nojji, the more I nojj about. Yeah, those fears again, But as I said, I can do so much when I am un-nojji. I almost get euphoria, just can solve most things, that´s why I keep doing this, my biggest hobby. Sometimes I feel like I want to quit with swapbot, but I just can´t stop.
But when I am un-nojji, the first day is always the best one. Then I am un-nojji for three days, and then I get nojjs, and it use to be between 6 and 12 hours. I don´t know why I have to have this, I wish I could just heal from this, be free from them. ‘
But sometimes I feel like it´s worth it, to have nojjs in 12 hours and then 3 good days! I just feel so balanced and calm sometimes, then it is the right time to fix stuff.
I love to make ppl happy, just to know that someone actually appreciate what I have done. And I love when I get mail, if my mailbox is happy, I am happy.
I live In the middle of Skåne, (skåne is a region in southern Sweden). I live in a group-home, for ppl that have some sort of diagnosis, I have a-typical autism, and I sometimes got a hard time taking in too much information. But other then that I can do so much by myself. Like I cook my food myself, cleaning and washing my clothes.
I love my job, I job at a second hand, I use to fix with the hangers, that´s one of my tasks, and doing the womens clothes.
I just want the nojjs to go away, I have a little dream, get rid of the nojjs first, then move to Malmö (my birthtown) maybe a grouphome in the beginning, later on have my own apartment with some support. And to have a little cat! :) And, Thanks to my bestie who showed me this site. Thanks and hugs to her!
I love to do ATC:s, I have a kind of dark sense of art. I love to do ballerinas, angels or creepy ppl, like the ballerina is broken, she is sewed all over her face and body, but she still dance!
I am pretty new to mail-art, sometimes I find myself sticker-slapping my envies, but I try to do it as creative as I can just do.
I have tried to do zentangles, not perfect but I love to try new art, new ways of doing ATC:S. Also I have started to do different medium on ATC:s, like stamping, tried with watercolors and using my jelli-pens and doing not so dark art.
A: Angels, ATC, Alice in Wonderland
B: Butterflies, Ballerinas, Bookmarks
C: Cats, Coca-cola-things, Cozy evening home with hot chocolate and cozy socks, cookies, Clips
D: Dandelions, Dancing when I feel happy,
E: Ephemera, Extras,
F: Fairies, Friends for ever,
H: Hot chocolate, Horror-themed, Happy mail, Hello kiitty
J: Jewellery, Just sitting and make an ATC or other art, Jelly candy
L: Letters, letter-paper
M: Mood for making stuff,
N: Notepads, Norwegian forest cats
O: Orchids, Old pin-up commercials
P: Postcards, Pin-ups, Purple,
Q: ? :D
R: Random things, Rainbow loom bracelets, Red
S: Stickers, Snail-mail, Scary, Steam-punk, second hand, Space, Stationary
V: VIdeo-games, VIntage
X: ? :D
Y: Yarn (embroidery)
A little wishlist (if you wanna send me)
Envelopes (always out of them)
Those stickers where it says: HappyMail, This is not a bill and such.
I love coffee and hot chocolate, but not fond of tea. I just don´t drink it. I don´t have a particular fav dish, but I love sushi! I love candy, most chocolate and jelly-candy, and everything coca cola.
My all time favorites (also mixed up)
Fried green tomatoes
Let the right one in
Alice in wonderland
The bridge to Therabithia
Harry Potter And a lot more..
It´s really mixed up, like everything between heaven and earth, film music, videogame music, rock, pop rap, synth and a lot more!
My all time fave videogame is Silent hill, I just love the melancholy feeling about it. It´s a horror game serie from Japan. Really, really scary, but I love it! :) Also adore the music from it! Other then that I like Crash Bamdicoot.
On the summer, I have my fan, sitting by my computer and feeling the easy breeze from the fan, blowing in my hair.
Like, I am obsessed with cloths and design-stuff. I always buy a new cloth and I just love to change my cloths once in a while. That makes me a little happy
To talk to a guy in my group-home. He has a hard time saying my name so he calls me Ellen ( He also has a problem with havig a conversation). He say, I am so good today, is Ellen feeling good today? And I answer, yes Ellen feels great today :)
On the winter, I like to wear my cozy socks and doing some hot chocolate
To do my apartment “tipp-topp”, when I am cleaning it and making it super-clean.
I am extremely easy to please, the only things I don´t want is licorice and tea!
I love recycling, just love to go to libraries and pick those nice free magazines and brochures. And when I am in a waiting room, like on hospital I always find something that contains a nice picture in it, :)
I am an indoor person, always something to do, like cleaning and swapping. I am just not an active person.
I always try to send my partners some profile-based extras. I always send stuff in time but if you haven´t got anything from me, please let me know and I am happy to resend.
That was all, hope you feel good ppl! :) take care, Emily